I think it’s important to begin this writing experiment by saying just how much I love life. The sky, the grass, the sea, cities, people, even junkyards. It is amazing. I know with every breath in my being that I want to be here as long as I can. What I hope to accomplish with this website is one very simple thing: a release. Of what, you ask? My darkness.
I am a childhood cancer survivor. I am also battle-worn. And I am ready to write about it.
I’m sure you know I like to smile alot. You’ve seen me laugh. You’ve seen me have fun. You’ve seen me brush things off. But you have only seen or heard the tiniest glimpses of my anger, fear, frustration, and despair. I plan on writing about the sad and hard times. You will read about much of the pain and darkness I have felt throughout the years. [Note: this was originally meant as a private site. I do realize now that it’s public, you may have never even met me.]
Please know that I do not intend to hold back. I will be vulgar, rude, and I will rage into this keyboard. I make no apologies, because my goal is honesty. And honestly, cancer, along with it’s devastating treatment, is NOT EASY. But also, please know that despite these dark things I write, this post was the first. Life IS beautiful. I will never disagree with that statement.